21 March 2012

21 03 2012, Sydney

if you think it -
but then realise,
suicide is not even an option,
then,
everything is suddenly wonderful,
nothing feels quite so heavy as it did,
for,
with the knowledge that you want to live
even if life is confused right now,
one is given strength, power.
the knowledge is:
living (right now) is infinitely preferable
to giving up (right now)
which would mean (i assume) never knowing
what life could become
whether more confused or less so (beside point).
so the thought of the possibility of suicide
is a force that can breathe life not death
into tired, overwhelmed heads
lucky, i suppose, that there is so much breath
to be breathed, lived
(so much more confusion to be had)
so much to wait and see!
and make happen oneself

20 March 2012