yesterday
my chest was very tight
i thought -
for the first time -
that maybe i would have a heart attack
not yesterday
necessarily
but one day
it felt very possible
likely, even
fated, perhaps
but the tightness
was not (only) thanks to
eating butter
drinking alcohol
smoking cigarettes
or even stress
more vital
was a mystery force
that clung itself
violently, almost
around the most crucial of my muscles
emanating thence
through the echoing chambers
of my lungs
silent to all but
lethal to me
once ignorant
until i felt
actual pain from le coeur -
the core - hardcore
heartcore
for a future unknown
but felt yesterday
then today
i woke up
having slept luxuriously well
and maybe the thought had gone
momentarily
maybe with it
the animal clinching
at my core
but now i feel it creeping back
heart attack
wringing thing inside my ribs
lungs, shoulders and throat
so it's definitely there
